Born in Wisconsin, came out here when I was 8. Became a Christian to earn my mother’s approval & love. Was a Christian for over 30 years, etc. etc. And no, it never really made sense to me. To list all the reasons why would take all day.
Found out about 5 years ago that the one parent who raised me (my dad died when I was six), has paranoid schizophrenia. This helps me understand the person I looked up to and worked to try to please my whole life, only to fail all my life.
A lot of what I was taught or led to believe about myself and the world have been lies, or in some way, false. I am in the process of trying to cut the things from my life that don’t make sense, that I have either been afraid to question or have questioned but quickly gave up as being just too mysterious for a human mind to comprehend. Yes, all that trusting in God and blindly follow stuff.
I am a born again Atheist. I call myself that because I unfortunately retain the habits I had as a Christian and what do Christians do? They witness. Or they speak out for what they believe in, and they do so freely, without really any concern for the other person they mind offend. They think nothing of telling people they’re sinners, that they’re going to hell if they don’t believe in the right things, etc., etc. So I tend to now, still, as an atheist, speak out a bit too forcefully sometimes and step on toes. Of course this is rude, but it is how I have been all my life, when I was a “born-again” Christian.
I do think questioning and challenging unfairness or what I perceive as lies, is not ineffective or pointless, and in fact I believe the only way to save our species from itself is to uncover the very falsehoods that have trashed our self-esteems so much, degraded our society so much.
In addition to this, I love animals, I believe preserving and protecting our environment and the natural world should be our first priority, not our last. And I believe in human rights. I feel there isn’t enough love in the world and that love is always good. Love in all its forms. So I do believe gays should be able to marry. I believe best friends should be able to hold hands in public if they want to, be they men or women, and not worry about being judged. And I believe in privacy, that everyone, including celebrities, have the basic right to it, and that the media’s life damaging (in Michael Jackson’s case, ending) practice of sticking their nose where it doesn’t belong, should be protested, and abolished. Yes, there should be freedom of speech. But not when its purpose is to cause damage or harm to another person.